By Clisver Alvarez, as informed to Stephanie Watson
Having bipolar affective disorder hasn’t been simple. I’ve coped with it for 11 years now. Being identified at age 16 was heartbreaking for me. I didn’t understand what was going on, and I keep in mind seeming like I was passing away. Primarily what I keep in mind is remaining in and out of healthcare facilities, and the numerous nights my moms and dads lay awake, hoping that I ‘d go back to my regular self.
The very first time it took place, I believed I was having an asthma attack. I had shortness of breath. I could not sleep. My mama needed to work– she operated in a factory. She informed me, “Just get some rest, I have to work tomorrow.” She wound up dropping off to sleep. I strolled to the healthcare facility alone in the middle of the night.
When I arrived I informed them I was having an asthma attack, since I do have asthma. They offered me the steroid drug prednisone. The nurse offered me 3 tablets. I keep in mind asking her, “Do I take all 3 tablets?” She didn’t state anything, so I wound up taking all of them.
I didn’t understand that psychosis is an adverse effects of steroids. I do not keep in mind how I got house that night. It’s like I blacked out.
Something’s Up
It specified where my mommy resembled, “There’s something incorrect.” When I searched for my signs on the web, I seemed like there needed to be something else going on. I wasn’t sleeping. I began getting irritable. I believed, this can’t be asthma.
Eventually, she took me to a psychiatrist, who verified that I had bipolar illness. My mama stated, “We need to put her on medication.” There were no ifs, ands, or.
Panic Mode
My psychiatrist put me on medication to treat my bipolar affective disorder, however I was young and didn’t accept my medical diagnosis. Lithium assisted, however it was extremely strong– so strong that I was sleeping through class, to the point where my grades decreased a lot. I didn’t adhere to my treatment, which frequently landed me in the healthcare facility.
I had one episode where my sweetheart dropped me off at the bus stop to go to